Over time, the internal dialogue was just too much to bear.
It didn’t matter what kind of smile or attitude I would show up in, the interpersonal messaging always bore the same tone: I’m frumpy, I’m fat, I’m ugly, I’m sad, I’m worth less because I can’t keep my weight—and myself—under control. I was successful professionally, and even knew happiness, but I wanted more from my life, and I knew there were more possibilities available that I was holding myself back from experiencing.
From the moment I opened my eyes in the morning, throughout every part of the day, and until my head hit my pillow at night, I didn’t have anything kind or nice or loving to say about the body I found myself trapped in. I truly believe the most important story we share is the one playing out in our head, it’s that inner voice, good or bad, guiding us throughout every day. I knew if I truly wanted to flourish and live the extraordinary life I always wrote about, in my work as a writer/editor, I needed to change the story in my head.
I was temporarily successful on just about every diet known available, oh it pains me to think of what I’ve endured as I chased the idea of a thinner elusive me. It wasn’t until I met BIllie, and hired her as my transformation coach that I became within kissing distance to, and eventually hit, my dreamiest health goals. I did it. I shed the encasement of fat and shame and toxic build up and addictions to everything that contributed to the extra 70 pounds I was hauling around.
I am at a health and life goal I had, once upon a time, given up on. And as soon as my feet hit the floor in the morning, throughout the entire day and until I fall asleep every night, I feel unleashed. And that’s exactly how I want everyone to feel about themselves. It changes lives, and it will make our community, and our world, a better place if we can help people change the dialogue in their heads, alter their life trajectories . . . we can change the health course America is on by getting as many people as possible to their 100 Year Bodies.